Up all night

I have to make this quick as Kaebryn has a Dr appt in 15 minutes. I haven't slept now for 28 hours. Kaebryn is really sick and hasn't slept either. We are both exhausted beyond measure. The night before last Troy had her in the ER with a fever of 104.5. After a few hours later, a catheter and a urine analysis, they sent her home with a schedule for ibuprofen and acetaminophen and an antibiotic for what we think is an ear infection. Yesterday her fever never reduced lower than 103 except once after a big drink and some advil, and it reduced to 100.6. She started throwing everything up and hasn't been able to keep anything down. My heart aches for her. Her skin is dry and chappy. Her breathing is very shallow. She doesn't even cry, it's more like a sad whimper. I wish I could take the pain away from her. It breaks my heart to see her this way. I am so grateful Richard and Peggy took the boys over night for me. It was so nice to focus on Sissy.

We go to the Dr today and I hope we can do something for her. Maybe it is something that just has to pass, I don't know. I have said many prayers in her behalf but they seem to go unanswered. She is resting now, for the first time since yesterday morning. I was able to get the thrown-up-on sheets in the washer and start her bottles in the sink.

This is the part I hate about parenting. I hate seeing my children suffer. I hate that they are sick and so helpless. I will update as soon as I can.

Congratulations, Kaden!

This is my baby brother-in-law. His name is Kaden. He recently graduated from High School and has a great Senior year! Whew, I'm sure he's glad it's over! He was only 6 when Troy and I got married. I remember playing video games with him and taking him swimming. I haven't always been the greatest sister-in-law, but I sure love this kid! He is so fun and cute. Kaden, I am so proud of you! You are going to go far in life. Congratulations!

Daeson is 7!

I cannot believe I have a 7 year old! He has grown so quickly!! I love Daeson so much! He is such a good helper. He is so tall and handsome and I think he is so friendly!

Daeson...

1. Loves his Sissy. He loves to carry her, love her, hold her, and play with her.

2. He loves Pokemon cards and yesterday declared that he would...never get rid of them even when he is a dad. So cute.

3. He loves riding bikes, scooters, and his pogo stick.

4. He is girl crazy, as we all know.

5. He is a show-off and loves to have attention.

6. He is so smart. He is doing algebra and reading very well. He is a quick learner once he decides he wants to learn it.

7. He is a teaser. He likes to pull jokes on people.

8. Though annoyed at times, he lets his little brother tag-along.

9. He is a good hugger. He loves to be held and often requests it.

10. He loves late-night-chats. He likes to have the one-on-one attention.

11. He likes Beyblades, Pokemon cards, Bakugan (though he is fading out of this), and quarter machines.

12. He likes to spend money the second he gets it. It just burns holes in those pockets!

13. He loves to eat and have several snacks during the day. He is a really good eater and has teh worlds fastest metabolism! He is so skinny!

14. He is a daredevil, often doing tricks.

15. He has lost several teeth now and wiggles them loose. He loves the tooth-fairy.

16. He bares his Testimony in Sacrament meeting and is so brave. He loves to talk about church and has many questions regarding the church.

17. He can be stubborn at times, but he is mostly easy going.

18. He loves to draw and color and is very good at this.

19. He loves to be stylish and to have his hair done. He likes to dress himself and express through clothing. The other day he had on one cowboy boot and one tennis shoe.

20. He is a good helper to me and is relied on a lot.

21. He is no longer wetting the bed! This is a huge milestone for us and we are so proud of him. I am sure in 20 yrs he is going to be glad I blogged about this!

22. He loves to jump on the trampoline and is learning to do a back flip. He can flip forward by himself, but still needs help back flipping.

23. He tries to be a friend to everyone and gets upset when the friendship is ended or when someone says they don't want to be his friend.

24. He wears a size 7/8 and has a size 2.5 or 3 shoe. He is so tall and I will get his stats posted on Monday after his visit.

25. He loves his family. He is a loving and caring boy and we love him so much!

I know at times Daeson gets tired of being the oldest. He gets tired of helping so much, but he is a good boy. We are pretty strict with him and he holds a lot of responsibilities...but he gets to do fun things, too. We love Daeson so much. I would be lost without him!

His favorite food is Hootenany (German pancakes)

His favorite friends are Rachel, Brady, Cam, and, of course, all of them :)!

His favorite color is white and black.

His favorite activity is playing with friends.

His least favorite food is nothing.

*This picture is from the 24th. I don't have more recent ones loaded yet.

His day....

I decorated his door with streamers and signs. He got breakfast in bed with Sunny D, eggs in a basket (toast and egg in the middle), yogurt, and sausage. After breakfast we went out for a bit. His friends came at 11:30. We played ring toss, had a hula-hoop contest, KungFu Panda game where you stick tags on the kicks and they are all different points, Birthday Bingo, and Birthday Birthday Boy (Duck Duck Goose). We then went outside and had a BBQ with cheeto balls, hotdogs, corn on the cob and a sundae bar. He didn't want cake, just icecream and lots of fixins! We then played with friends and jumped on the trampoline. This is when he learned to do back filps. He picked Leo's for dinner. We ate and played there. Grandpa and Grandma Blue joined us. We gave him his pogo stick and he was so happy. He did the token games and won over 500 tickets. It took him a while to decide what to spend them on. He went shopping with Grandma and Grandpa and came home with Pokemon cards. He had a great day and I hope it was fun for him.

It's amazing when one aspect in life is thrown into chaos how it effects the others so much. The cupboards are done...finally. Today was the completion of the installation. My kitchen is looking great, but now we have to finish our part...new lights, trim, and bead board. It will be done soon, I hope.

The rest of my house is chaos. I didn't realize how much the kitchen was used until I didn't have it. It is truly the heart of our home. I love having it semi-back. I started moving things in yesterday, and I have been working in it all day today. I'm tired tonight.

Kaebryn is sick. I don't know what she has or how to treat it. She is miserable and wants to be held. All day. I get nothing done. The hard part is that she thinks she wants held, but wiggles out of my arms to get down, once down, she cries to be back up. I love this baby of mine, but I have not had a good nights rest since Oregon. I'm ready to sleep! I feel so bad for her...she just is so stuffy. I think it is from the construction, but she truly could have picked up a bug anywhere.

Daeson finished First Grade today! He got straight A's and did very well with everything. He is a bright child and he is a good boy. He is thrilled to turn 7 on Monday!

Tevan is glad school is out as well. He gets so bored during the day...especially lately. I just haven't been able to spend a lot of time with him. But he is a trooper and uses his imagination so well.

I started watching my friend's two boys off and on. Tev loves having friends. It will work out just fine. There is always an adjustment period.

Tomorrow is our combined birthday party. I started their cakes, but that is as far as I got. I need to make fondant and somehow shape the boys cake into a Skylander's portal. It should be interesting. I made a small cake for Kaebryn. I made a Tinkerbell cake for my niece, Tora. It won't take too long to do the others, I just need to get the rest of the kitchen put away and take the time to do it.

It is almost 11:30 p.m. I think I am going to swap laundry out and head to bed. I will get up in the morning, finish the kitchen, make fondant, color fondant, and apply the fondant to the cakes. I am praying they turn out cute. It's a little out of my league. However, challenge is good.

Blogging hault

I have been extremely overwhelmed lately and blogging has taken a back burner. We have been without a kitchen for two weeks now, as the remodeling has taken over. Troy and I busted our humps trying to get things ready for last Thursday when the cabinet people told me the cupboards would be in....they never came. Friday morning they were here and installed the lower cabinets...not with drawers or cupboard faces, just cabinets. Then the counter top people came in. Troy and I laid the floor, mostly Troy, and got the appliances in. By Sunday our kitchen was almost useable and by Monday, yesterday, I could use it enough to cook again. I am mad at the cabinet people. I am upset they were not straight forward with us and I am mad they didn't answer our calls last week, they just left us hanging. But alas, it will look wonderful when they are done. Sigh...

Troy has a new calling. He will be released from Elder's Quorum teacher and he is now serving in the Young Men's as a quorum adviser.

Daeson's last week of school is this week. He is excited. Today their class went on a field trip. He was really excited about it!

Kaebryn is crawling all over the place and is into everything! The other day Tevan plugged the toilet by flushing half a roll of toilet paper. Before we knew it, I had gone in and peed. When I tried to flush it, it didn't go down. By the time Troy could get in there, she had gone in, found the full toilet and played in it...and ate the pee toilet paper. I'm shocked she isn't sick from the toilet germs, but I have a feeling she is going to be the kid with the best immune system. She eats everything! Insulation, dirt, bugs, pee water, carpet, paper and anything else she can get her mouth on. She is quick too, and she now knows to swallow before I go fishing in her mouth for it!

Tevan is growing finally. He acts a lot older lately too. He is smart as a whip and the trickiest 4 yr old I know.

The boys are grounded from everything until their room is kept clean for a week. Friends, video games, netfilx and so on. I am glad they are unplugged! They actually have imaginations to use!

Troy is back in school. He had a week break and did very well last semester! He had a super hard workload and I am proud of him and the grades he got! He is taking Anatomy and Physiology this semester...a higher level one. He is in for 6 weeks and then starts right after with 6 more weeks of school...we get to apply for Nursing in September! Woohoo.

I am going crazy and I am feeling very unorganized! But we will get this mess out of the way, get ready for a yard sale and try to keep up with everything going on this summer. I bought a Zoo pass, movie tickets through the school, and we have several parks in our area. We should be able to find something to do everyday. Oh, and with Troy working at the Apple, we have free admission there, too. It should be a great summer.

Today we had extremely high winds. It picked a 3 ft by 8 ft piece of 1/2 inch plywood up and threw it against our van putting a huge gash in the front passenger fender! I was in the living room and heard a huge crash...when I went outside, the wood was on the top of the van and when I pulled it off, I saw the gash. Not happy about that!!

Cupboards are supposed to be here in 20 minutes, but I am definitely not going to hold my breath! They probably won't show. But, I know four people not using them now because of their delay. The cupboards look good now, but we will see when they get done.

What is heaven worth?

Warning, another lengthy blog mostly for journaling purposes.

I feel like a slacker lately.  I feel like I am not doing my part, not only feeling this way, but I know I am not doing it.  Last week we didn't got to our block meetings.  No reason other than my kids were still coughing and I wasn't feeling like fighting Kaebryn in sacrament meeting.  So what did we do, you ask?  We drove to Swan Valley for a square ice-cream cone.  Then we drove to Camp Little Lemhi to check it out.

This weekend we have been a bit lazy, we played late last night with some friends and slept in this morning...I am so glad Kb slept in too!  Today we skipped our regional Stake Conference.  Fighting Kaebryn in regular meetings is hard enough, but I knew I wasn't up for it today for two hours.  So, we dallied in the garden a bit, swept the porch, and cleaned out the outside toybox.  We went through some of the kid's toys too and are opting to give them a better home.  We meandered out to Troy's mom and dad's for a delicious turkey dinner made by Kayla and Peggy.  After dinner, we went for a family bike ride.  The grandkids are getting so big and I cannot believe they ride by themselves!  After the bike ride, we came back home, dropped the bikes off, and headed to Sears.  I know we are supposed to keep the Sabbath Day holy, but we justified it because we need a fridge and tonight only they were an extra 15% off, saving us another 240.  Then on top of that, we asked the missionaries to help us unload it.

Hmm....as I review the activities of today, I do with a heavy heart.  I know I have not been doing what I am asked to do.  I know that Heavenly Father is disappointed in my actions.  In my defense, I did attend a relief society planning meeting last Monday and I went to the Temple Friday with my little brother and my cousin. However,  I didn't feel like I usually do when I attend the temple.  I know that it is because I have not been up to par with what I should be doing.  I know there is much for me to do to make-up for my lack of enthusiasm.  I know I get to try harder.  I know I can make mistakes and repent.  I know that there is still hope.

I was chatting with someone this morning and telling her that we had plans to go to Sears and that we didn't go to church today.  I told her, light heartedly, that I had small chances of ending up in the Celestial Kingdom and justified it by saying that I would probably be uncomfortable there anyway.  I have been reviewing my comments all day and I am kinda saddened by them.  I know we are striving to be there...I know it is where I will want to be.  I don't know what phase I am going through right now.  I don't know why after having such a strong testimony my whole life I am struggling now.  I don't know why after 10 years of Troy being inactive I am falling now.  I don't know what is going on with me...I am changing in so many ways.  I feel like I am a stranger to myself sometimes.  I guess I am maybe becoming more reliant on Troy to lead the ways of our family.  I was strong for 10 years, and it was hard.  I feel like now that I have relied on him, I can breathe for a moment and let him carry the spiritual burdens.  He is definitely the stronger one of us right now.

There is no price on heaven.  There is no challenge we cannot overcome.  There is no guarantee in life that we will make it to the top, but only a promise that we can.  I know these things to be true.  I know that I can return to live with my Heavenly Father, and I also know that I have to be the one to want to.  I have to put forth the effort and live according to his plan.  So for now, I  might slack off for a bit, but I know that I will be able to grow stronger and stronger if I choose to.

I know my thoughts have been very random lately, but I have a lot going on in this head of mine and lately this is the only way I can sort things out.  It's a relief to get it out and to reread the thoughts and feelings.  I believe it to be quite therapeutic...although some may think I need to seek therapy !lol

New blogger set-up

I don't like it.  I don't know how to post things the way I want...and I cannot find the post date so I can post things chronologically.  So, no back posting for now.