Grateful

We had a wonderful Thanksgiving on Saturday with my family. On my mom's side, everyone was there and we took a group picture...the first full group since Great Grandma died. On my dad's side, we were missing one and and uncle and their kids...two are on missions, two live in Boston and the others had plans. We missed them, but we enjoyed the company we had there. It was really nice to see everyone! We cooked, cooked and cooked. We loaded the car and barely fit everything in there, and I have a big car! We, as usual, had way too much food and it all tasted so yummy. The Zofran was slow to work Saturday, but it kicked in just in time for the big feast! Yummy!

Sunday we enjoyed the Grover Thanksgiving. It was equally delicious and a ton of food there, too. I love Aunt Vicky's guac dip and it hit the spot! My Zofran failed me Sunday...well, not completely. I managed to keep everything down, I was just nauseated and yucky feeling. We had every member of the family there on the Grover side minus Brandon and Zach. Bran lives in Washington and was working. Zach had previous plans. We missed them both, but I was so grateful we got a picture. WE HAVE NEVER HAD A FAM PIC IN 10 YRS! I don't think everyone was thrilled, but I made them do it anyway. It turned out pretty good and as soon as I can get a pic from someone with a camera, I will post pictures. I have taken my camera everywhere, I just have not used it!

I went to the Dr yesterday. I really like my new Dr and he was very good to get a long with. His staff is wonderful and I felt right at home. I love it! I have been spotting since Friday, and I was very concerned. He couldn't find anything wrong with the cervix, so he said just to lay low (as in stay on your couch and don't do anything) and if it gets worse, call. So, Dr orders: temporary bed rest until the bleeding stops. Great. But, the heartbeat and everything else looks great. I was so happy to hear that because I was quite worried about it. he said it could be from the amt of throwing up I have been doing, too. But, all in all everything looks great and I should be (theoretically) feeling better in the next two weeks. I am 11 weeks now, but they wrote my due date as June 4th. Lets hope.

Today I got a pleasant surprise. My other mother came over to clean. She did a few batches of laundry, she did all the dishes, cleaned the bathrooms, kitchen, toy room, living room and vacuumed the whole thing. She also made me my favorite banana cake. Unfortunately she had to listen and watch me throw up. I always hate throwing up in front of people yet I am sure they hate it worse!! She is a good lady and I appreciate all that she has done for me! I am grateful for great inlaws!

My mom is stuck in Pocatello right now. She was going to come Monday, but we have gotten so much snow that it has been impossible for her to make it. Tomorrow she will be here and I will be glad to spend time with her before she has to go back next week. The kids have been missing her, too. So, tomorrow we get to have Grandma full time for a while. I just hope she doesn't get burned out with all of us making so many demands!!! The boys require a lot of attention form their Grandparents, and I am sure I am the one who made them that way. I love having Grandparents around. I never got that after the age of 7.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I am sure that a lot of you will be traveling. Be safe. I am sure a lot of you will be enjoying a wonderful, yummy dinner. Enjoy. I am sure some of you will be going to bed early so that you can rise and shine for Black Friday. Be one of the NICE shoppers instead of the mean and vengeful ones! For my family? We are going to enjoy a movie (depending on how I feel it will be here or at the theater) and we are eating out. I feel a bit guilty making people work on Thanksgiving. However, I am going to enjoy a day off from all the hustle and bustle of traditional turkey day and we are going to enjoy our boys and my mom. Relaxing. To all of you, have a safe and great Thanksgiving. May we all have things to be grateful for. Things are tight for most families, but I know we each have something to be grateful for. This year, I am grateful for my three boys, for family and friends who have helped make this pregnancy a little bit easier, for the prayers that have been said in my behalf and for the wonderful support I have been given. I am grateful for a husband who works tow jobs, does the laundry, cooks the meals, does the dishes and takes care of my two children. I am grateful this year for a body that functions. I might not be grateful when I am throwing up constantly, but I am grateful that it is able to form a baby with as little nutrition and health as it has been given. I am grateful for a home...right this second it is a clean home. I am grateful for warmth. I often complain that our house it too hot because Troy like to crank the heat up. He is outside all day in the cold and I am grateful he can come home to a warm house. I am grateful this year for love. I know that I am loved by Troy, my boys, my family and a loving Heavenly Father. I know my prayers have been answered. I know that I am a child of a very loving Heavenly Father who watches out for me and loves me so much. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!!!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving? Yup. Tomorrow my family celebrates Thanksgiving. Sunday, we celebrate with Troy's family. Today I started on Zofran. What do I think? Miracle drug! It was so great today to eat, keep it down, and I left the house!!! We shopped for groceries...and not even the meat counter made me sick. The down side? I am not sure if my mom is staying now. I wish she would, but I understand if she decides I am "back to normal."

Tonight we made three coconut cream pies, two banana cream pies, an apple pie, a razzle berry pie, a pumpkin pie, and a chocolate pie, five dozen rolls, a cherry salad, a coleslaw-Waldorf salad, and a famous green jello salad (yes, I am Mormon!!). Tomorrow we have stuffing, two hams and two turkeys to prepare. AND, everything was from scatch. Yes, I am proud of that, too! I felt really good today, but it is starting to take its toll as it is 11 pm. The side effect of the Zofran is headache and I have had one all day but I am not sure if it is the lack of sleep due to really bad heartburn last night or if it was actually a side effect. We'll see if this is a regular occurrence. I hope not.

So, tomorrow I will be enjoying food once again...I will be with family...I will be happy. I love it! So, yes, it is a Happy Thanksgiving and I have a lot to be thankful for this year. Family, friends, a new baby, a good job for Troy, a good school for Daeson and Tevan, and a home to live within. I am Thankful for so many things...mostly because I feel good right now...but I truly am thankful for all of my blessings. Happy Thanksgiving!

Friendly arrivals

Today my mom and dad came. They brought Happy Meals, smiles and lots of hugs. In the first two hours that my mom was here, she cleaned the kids' room, the toy room, went to the grocery store, cleaned the LR and vacuumed everything. And dusted. Tonight for dinner we had steak, mashed potatoes, gravy, salad, corn, grapes and salad. What a great meal thanks mom and Troy! It tasted really good (or the mashed potatoes and gravy mixed with corn anyway, that is all that I could handle). Mom has done five or so batches of laundry and Mount Washmore is fading. What a blessing. And tonight when I was throwing up, she rubbed my back! No one touches me usually when I puke...it was nice to know that I have some support while at my weakest point.

We are celebrating Thanksgiving on Saturday. Tonight I got a prescription for Zofran. I hope this ends up in a happy mixture. I only got two to see if they even work. I have heard great things about it and they finally came out with a generic that is affordable. I am hoping that it works.

Not sooo fast!

So, I got a little excited with the last post. Sunday night I threw up...a lot. Monday I spent the whole day on the couch, and today? Well, I missed primary pres mtg (they didn't call because they figured I was throwing up) and I missed parent teacher conf. I had to hang-up mid sentence while talking to my mom so that I could throw up. I must be doing this a lot because Tevan now acts out like he is throwing up. Sunday we went to GG Blues to get Daeson. Right before we left, I threw up. When we arrived, Tevan started freaking out about the smell...it went like this: "The smell, Mommy! I gonna throw up! It stinks mom, yucky smells! I gonna throw up!" He proceeded to the bathroom and acted like he was indeed throwing up. She was cooking garlic bread and I didn't even get sick from the smell! Then last night he declared he could not sleep in his bed, he is sick and has to sleep on the couch. ( I have been on the couch for a very long while!!!) He is just so funny!!! Both boys are very sympathetic when I am throwing up. I did have to explain to Daeson that he cannot play 20 questions while I am in the bathroom...when I hold up a finger, please wait until I can answer before asking me anything else! And, if I can hang up on my own mother while throwing up, please do not think that I won't hang up on you! Today I have spent the entire day on the couch. I did make breakfast for Troy when he came home at 10:30. But,unfortunately, that is the last thing I have done. In the last three days,I did manage to read the Rick Riordan book, "The Last Hero". Fantastic read if you are wondering! I read all the Percy Jackson books and this is just as good. It even ties in to the Percy books. Very easy and very fun!

The other thing I did today was switch Doctors. I don't generally bad mouth doctors, given my dad's profession, however, a certain Dr. Leavitt's office was a bit savvy if you ask me! The nurses were always cold...like they hated being there. The last visit I went to the office billing guy pulled me into the office to make payment arrangements. I was then handed a paper that I had to sign saying that I would pay every office visit the amount of $700 or right around there. I didn't know what to do, so I had Troy call to speak to him. Troy simply asked if we could reduce the payment to $350 so that it didn't put us in a crunch every month. He said, "Well if you had a $700 plumber's bill, you would pay him." He missed the point. We were not trying to refuse to pay, just make it so that we can afford it! Then he got after us about insurance. I have insurance, but in Idaho, it is crappy self-employed insurance and our deductible is $7500. That is ridiculous but I cannot do anything about it! And I pay a chunk of change for that!!!! Anyway, he then told Troy that if we cannot pay them (finally agreeing to $400), they would sue us. What jerks! They do not know me, they do no tknow that I have NEVER been late on a payment!!! They had no right to threaten me with sueing me...the baby has not even been born yet!!!!!! I am only 10 weeks and they pull this kind of crap! Then, when I called the office to tell them I needed my records transferred and to cancel my apt, she hung up! I wash my hands of them!!! Plus, the new doctor is $600 cheaper...eat that! So, I did do one more good thing today, I saved my family $600 with two phone calls!

Daeson's teacherloves him...he is a great student and she had nothing but good to say about him! Troy was very excited and happy to report that. He get a little rambunctious at times, but what 5 year old boy doesn't. There are 3 small baby letters he cannot recognize, but we will fix that!!! Troy asked if he could start reading and she was excited that we wanted him to this early. I had no idea what they were learning, I am such an outstanding parent these days, but I was thrilled to know that he is doing and learning so much! Great job, Daeson! I sure love you!

On the mend

I am not sure if the last two days are , "here, feel better so it can get worse" days or if I am starting to feel human again. The song from Beauty and the Beast keeps popping in to my mind, "We'll Be Human Again" (from the revised DVD). I have not thrown up...I have wanted to but managed to keep it all down. Today my Grandma and Grandpa visited with what Troy declared "the best chicken and noodle soup he has ever eaten", Jell-o, oranges, rolls and cinnamon rolls. It tasted so great and Tevan even ate it! Daeson is at Grandpa and Grandma Blue's (Troy's parents), they picked him up last night so he did not get to see G&G. They were sad, but I am sure he is having a fabulous time. My mom and dad are coming this week and we are so excited. This will be a good visit, and if I am not feeling better, she will stay!!!! for two weeks. Do I see vegetables in my children's futures??? I am grateful that she is able to come stay, it will be so wonderful to spend time with her and the boys are ecstatic. We definitely don't see them as much as we want to.

Because I knew my Grandparents were coming, I was able to muster through cleaning two bathrooms, loading the dishwasher, washing the dishes that would not fit, and cleaning the LR. I was just wiping down counters as they pulled in. I gagged the entire time, willing myself to keep it under control, and I did it. I made myself, for the first time in weeks, clean thoroughly. Troy was quite impressed when he got home from work tonight. I still have unwashed laundry and the sheets all need changed, but we are afloat. Atleast someone can walk into my home and I am not embarrassed from the disaster.

So, lets hope that this is coming to an end. Tuesday I am 11 weeks and I will be so glad when the first trimester is done. I have a fat little belly, but I am weight down, so I am sure it is all baby!!! LOL! :) So, until next time...

Tears

A couple of years ago, my sister-in-law's sister-in-law and brother had twin boys three months early. One, Dex, did not make it and many tears have fallen in their behalf. The other boy, sweet Crew, is a super cute baby and has come so far! Today I read a precious blog posted by Megan. It made me stop to think about life and how precious it is. As I sit and blog about how miserable I am, I know there are several out there who would give anything to be in my shoes right now. This humbles me. I forget that I am lucky to be carrying a child. I forget that I am lucky to be able to increase my family by one more member. My selfishness has consumed me and I feel so sad about that. I am sorry for making anyone feel sad or lonely. I think I have just felt so sorry for myself that I have not stopped to think of anyone else. I hope things start looking better!!! And, Megan, you are brave and courageous. You are an inspiration to all of us!

sweet friends

Sunday night a dear friend brought over chili and cornbread for our family. After visiting, which I love because it seems to take my mind off things, she cleaned my living room. I have been sleeping in the living room on the couch for five weeks now (Troy has a smell that mu super sniffer just cannot handle), and it was nice to close my eyes Sunday night to a clean living room. Monday she came over again. She cleaned my bathroom, she cleaned my kitchen, washed the dishes, unloaded and loaded the dishwasher and asked if there was anything else she could do. Oh, Rachel! Thank you five million times! It was such a wonderful thing you did for me!!! Monday night one of the sisters in the RS presidency, Suzy, brought homemade turkey noodle soup and bread with apple tart-let and pumpkin cookies for dessert. It was wonderful and Daeson declared it was his favorite thing to eat! Unfortunately, things are hard for me to keep down. If you call, chances are that you will be put on hold for a minute or called back. I never know when it will hit me!

Troy is feeling much better and he actually loaded the dishwasher last night. HE NEVER does this and proclaims that dishes should be done by hand! But, he did it and I am so grateful he is feeling better. He comes home at 9 to take Tev to school, he picks up at 11. Then he takes Daes at 12 and picks him up at 3. He is so dependable. He has done all the dentist and doctor visits, he has bathed, dressed, brushed the boys' teeth and gets them to bed. PLUS, he works and cooks for us. True it is not the meals that I cook and vegetables and fruits are often left out, but ramen is okay for dinner. I am coming to terms with this. I am still not eating much so I don't really care what they eat. Most of the time it makes me gag anyway! Yesterday I had a mashed potato chicken bowl from KFC, and nothing else until late when I managed a bagel.

I am grateful for those around me who help me and who offer their time in my family's behalf. Troy feels like we are some big needy family....and right now, I can say we are. When the momma doesn't function, the home doesn't function. But I know that this is only temporary. These posts are not for anyone necessarily, but they are for me to remember why we stopped having children. These posts are for me to remember the next time I get the sniffles and I am feeling down, that things are not as bad as they are right now. I am grateful for the honest feelings I have about this pregnancy. It makes it feel real. Although 10 weeks is not very far, I have been sick for over half of them and that makes it seem a lot more. I am hoping by the 20th of Nov I willb e feeling better. Our family is celebrating Thanksgiving that day and I am cooking the turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, gravy and two apple pies. I just want to make it through it. That is all. Last night I bummed a phenegrin off my neighbor ( I took it with Tev and it did nothing, but I was desperate last night). Not 10 minutes after taking it, I threw everything up. And, just for future reference, Crystal Light is not the worst thing to throw up. Gross, maybe. helpful? Definitely. I am now 40% excited for this pregnancy. I was 0% Sunday, so that is a huge improvement. I know once things are a bit smoother and things are going better that % will change significantly. I go to the Dr again on the 22nd. This will be my blood work and all that junk visit. I hate getting blood drawn and I hate peeing in a cup. However, I think it will be fun to have the boys hear the heart beat. I am anxious for them to start understanding the baby thing. Daeson gives my belly loves and tells the baby he loves it. He actually wants to name the baby Jesebele. What five year old picks Jesebele? We do have names picked out, but someone from preschool already has taken it, so I will not be sharing until the baby is born. Even though the preschool lady said they are using it, I had it first and I will be using it, too. I love the names we have. Boy and girl alike. The boy will be named after Troy and the girl after me. Those are the only clues you get for now.

If I have ignored you or not called you back, I am sorry. If I have shirked on my duties for callings, I am sorry. If you come to my house and it is a mess, I am sorry...you should have come last Monday! :). I do not feel like talking on the phone, I do not feel like going out of my home, and I do not feel like being too social at this point. So, I am sorry. I just want to lay on the couch, nap and occasionally eat something very bland and flavorless to keep my body working. The good news? No weight gain! Just leveling it all out!

Cleaning

It is amazing what a five-year-old and a three-year-old can do. I know I am really acting horrible when my kids start catering to me to make me happy. So, after church...I know it is Sunday and we should be doing holier things, but my kids hauled all the dirty clothes downstairs (making SEVERAL trips) and restocked the bathrooms with TP. They are very eager to help me today and I am taking advantage of it. It is so nice of them, and it helps that I mention money:).

Today at Church I asked around to find someone who wants to clean my house for a little extra money. I cannot really afford to pay someone a whole lot, but I am just looking for someone to clean my kitchen and bathrooms every week thoroughly. Also to give the house a quick vacuum. That is all I ask. Those are things that I just cannot do right now. The boys can help pick up and Troy should be able to take out the trash, although he is going to be super busy now that he has his hand in another business. I will not be seeing much of him at all. What timing! This will be a change for all of us. I am not a person who asks for help and I normally would not be asking for someone to clean for me. But, I lay on the couch everyday wondering how in the world I am going to conquer these tasks. I cannot live like this!!!! The energy I do have needs to be focused on laundry and cooking something. Even if it is cereal. I also need to focus on my kids and be nicer to them. I have been a monster of late and I feel so bad about it.

Tevan's ears are still oozing disgusting green stuff and he is whiny and tired...and demanding. Neither he nor I have had a decent night's sleep for almost a week. Daeson and I managed church today. Troy is feeling a bit better, but not better enough to whip up the Alfredo and grilled chicken I requested :). I hope tomorrow we will all be in better health and I am hoping that we will all be able to take care of ourselves...or at least Troy and I. Until then...

Super powers

I can GROW people, what is your super power?

Dinner

Dinner is over-rated, especially when you throw it up.

Laundry

I must admit, this pregnancy has me beat. I lay on the couch most days, wondering what the heck I am doing just laying on couch. It is comfy, I can snooze, and I feel less nauseated while lying there. Nothing in my house gets done...nothing. Heidi, my fab sis in law, came Monday to help clean. She was great. We took down Halloween and got things to where I was not embarrassed to occupy my home. Unfortunately, by Tuesday it was a mess again. Trigger points for me are: the kitchen, cooking or uncooked food, and laundry. Yesterday Troy went out, after the boys declared there were no clean pjs in their drawers, and bought pjs. Four pair. Luckily I had thrown a batch of laundry in sometime during the week and had it on the floor near my desk, waiting to be folded. So, when Troy came home from the store, he was surprised to find the boys in clean pjs. However, I do have some great pjs for Christmas presents now! Late last night I decided I better get some laundry done. I have washed, dried and or folded seven batches now. And, to my surprise, only dry heaved four or five times. I will not let this beat me. The kids have not had sheets on their beds all week, and our sheets have not been changed for three weeks now...keep in mind that because we have all been sick, I have slept on the couch for the last three weeks so I don't have to smell anyone and therefore it is not my responsibility to change those sheets :), or at least that is what I am telling myself! Last night I was up until 5 am with Tevan who was very restless. He wriggled, he cried, he moaned and he boobed about everything. He has some major drainage from his ear, but it is not infected. I am sure it is very uncomfortable for him, so I finally convinced him Ibuprofen was what he needed. I finally cozied in on my couch, quite comfy I might add, and fifteen minutes later I hear, "Mommy, I need a drink." So, we gave drinks, said I love yous and snuggled back down. Then at 7, Troy's alarm blared through the house making it all but impossible to stay asleep. By 9 everyone was awake and it was time to face the day. I miss yesterday's loooong nap. Today I want to climb back on my couch and sleep again. Alas, I must fight the laundry battle, brave the smells of my kitchen and "[wo]man up" to the duties of a mom and wife. I don't want to. I get nauseous thinking about it, but it's not going to do it itself. I have already proven that! I am asking for a favor...if anyone out there has a great and fantastic solution to morning (day) sickness, please let me know. I have tried B6, meklazine, ginger ale, Phenagrin, and all types of mint products. I know that there is a new generic version of Zofran, but when we read about it, it said there was not significant studies done to know the risks of preg women, whatever that means. So, if you have a fantastic cure-all, I would love to get back in my beloved kitchen and cook something delicious!!!!

Halloween fun

We had a fun Halloween this year filled with spooks and sweets. I was Medusa, Troy was a Jester, Daeson was a Knight and Tev was Batman. They were so cute! We had a little party and went to the Trunk-or-Treat at the church. Finally at 1 am, I finally called it a night. Yesterday was our Primary program and being in the Presidency, it was busy. Our kids did a wonderful job and I am proud of Daeson for having his part memorized. He was the only one who did not need help! Great job, Bug! After church, I rested for a bit. I was exhausted. I went to bed too late and woke up way too early! Today is house cleaning day. I loaded the dishwasher and it is ready to be loaded and ran again. Laundry is piled high as it has been neglected since last Monday, and the floors that were spotless Saturday are disgusting. I am pretty sure there was some pop or something spilled and tracked through the kitchen. The cupboards are covered in things that need packed away in the Halloween stuff. Troy did a great job on Saturday with the bathrooms and kitchen but I am afraid it will all need done again today. So, now that the festivities are over, the cleaning will begin.

Oh, I went to the Doctor on Wednesday and everything is great. Our peanut is perfectly fine with a strong heartbeat and great length. Only 32ish more weeks to go! Luckily, I am just still nauseated. I have convinced myself that throwing up is overrated and I have been able, for the most part, to keep things down. I am sick to my stomach every day, all day, but I hope it will get better.